Saturday, May 26, 2012
Hey Cellies ;P
Ok stop asking me if I have a bf! I dont! For the very last time! I DONT! ;P
Before I get to my prayer request, need to tell u guys something~
I JUST WENT FOR JAYESSLEE CONCERT!! Be jealous!!
So during the concert, the twins were sharing their testimony about how they came to Christ and how they pull through the period when their mother pass away. When they were sharing, I dont know why, but I just felt the urge to share this with you guys so that you guys can keep me in prayer.
For those of you who dont know, many things happened to my family the past few weeks. Not too long ago, my paternal grandfather fell and fracture his hip and pelvic bones. He is currently hospitalized and undergoing physiotherapy. As if its not bad enough, my grandfather's dementia must worsen at this time. It became so bad that he cant even control his emotions. This incident kept my dad super busy. Running all over the place, from serangoon to hougang then to tampines. That was his routine for the past few weeks. I totally can feel his stress at this point of time. Here comes my uncle to make everything worse. First, just before the operation, he disappeared to Bali for holiday. Second, he started scolding everyone in the family, trying to escape the responsibility.
Event 2. My maternal uncle who has down syndrome is down with an unknown condition that caused his entire digestive tract to be filled with ulcers. He was in so much pain he couldnt eat nor drink. He cant even move much. Because he has down syndrome, he often do what he feels like. My family tried to send him to the hospital but he just ran out. Injection is also not an option. According to the doctor the only solution is to ask him to smoke morphine to ease the pain so that he can eat and drink after. But this is not a long term solution. The doctor also said that for a down syndrome, my uncle's lifespan is already considered very long. In other words, he might die anytime.
My parents are super stressed as you guys can imagine. The stress is taking its toll on their health. My mom had gastritis and to do a minor operation to remove polyps. Doctor also found potentially cancerous cells, and waiting for the report to come out is the worst feeling especially for my mom. And my dads blood pressure shot up all the way 160++ and he complains that he has chest pain. But my dad was so busy he didnt even had time to go for a check up. I'm sure the stress affected them not just physically but emotionally as well. But knowing my parents, they will never let me know because they want to teach me to be strong. I really wanna be there for them now, I've nv regret this much leaving sg. When I left, my grandfather was still healthy and not senile, and now he's wheelchair bounded and I dont even know if he remembers me. I dont know how to feel. I just wake up, get out of home to meet friends, trying to forget everything, and then head home, pray, then cry myself to sleep. The cycle repeats almost every other day. I know that there's nothing I can do, yet I cant help but worrying about them.
You guys know Murphy's Law right? All these things must happen just before my exams. Super helpful! Being so emotionally affected, I just cant study. Now that its one week away from exams, I realized that im screwed! I feel so helpless. The only thing that I can do is pray and the only way that everything can work is also through God. Not too long ago God told me that He loves me and He is hearing all my prayers. Though I dun really feel God as close as I want Him to be, but I trust that after all the trials, I'll walk even closer to Him. ;)
I cried enough. I'm not gonna cry anymore. After this post i'll start studying. Really! Im gonna do my best and trust God to do the rest. ;D
Guys! If you do see my parents in church or anywhere, do encourage them or pray for them ;)
Yup! Thats it for now! ;D
Fiona ;D
what we could have been, 2:05 PM.
